First of all, let me take a moment to celebrate 30 days!!!!!! *doing a victory dance*
I’ve had such a truly fulfilling day! Admittedly it started earlier than I would have liked. Our clocks went back an hour here in New Zealand but when you have kids, that does NOT mean you get an extra hour in bed. It means being woken up at 5:30am not 6:30am!
But hey, no hangover to contend with these days, so outta bed I got, pretty happy, and watched them follow all my Easter Egg Hunt clues around the house.
That was really fun! Seeing their delighted wee faces as they worked out each clue and collected two small eggs at each point! Sober as a judge, the night before I created and wrote out the clues and placed them all over the house, with the eggs. I’m actually really proud of that. But secretly of course, because Easter Bunny did it all, you see!
So with chocolate in their bellies, we gathered the kids and their bike and scooter and hubby and I took them to our local bike track for a (very) early morning run. It was pretty busy at that hour! Who knew so many people don’t use a long weekend as an excuse to drink more?!
When we got back home I jumped onto YouTube to do Day 6 of my 30 Day Yoga challenge with Adriene. She is such a cool chick, so down to earth and a cute sense of humour! If you want to do it, just click here and be taken directly to day one.
We had my parents over for lunch, roast chicken and a tonne of vegetables, followed by cheese and crackers. Delicious! It was an enjoyable few hours. Especially wonderful to see my Dad healing really well after his prostate operation.
Once they had left, I was cleaning up all the dishes and finishing listening to The Bubble Hour’s ‘Beyond Our Best Thinking – Surrendering the Ego in Recovery‘. Wow, it was deep and I will have to listen to it a few times to understand it fully but holy moly, it was POWERFUL.
I was thinking about my SIL and that whole situation mainly, because she (I’ve just recently realised is a narcissist) is totally ego driven. The way she has shut me out, won’t accept my offers of help anymore, etc. all driven by the ego. Here’s some quick notes I scribbled toward the end of listening:
I don’t have to control the SIL situation, I don’t have to fix it. I just need to accept the powerlessness and accept things as they are. Things will end up how they are supposed to. And I just have to trust that.
When I have acceptance, I have serenity. Maybe I need to borrow from the serenity prayer?
My ego is the one that drives the crazy, anxiety creating thoughts.
Tell the ego to SHUT UP. I cannot control people, places or things. Period.
It feels really good. For today, this moment at least, I feel at peace. I’ve accepted it for what it is. I wish you all a very wonderful moment of peace, wherever you are.